Wednesday, March 6, 2019

The first year after my father's death, the second year, the third, and time goes on

I was still modeling, but I was grieving also.

From my journal on my father’s death and that first year. I can be certain that in year two, three, five and...the carrying of carrying on is still carried. The pack of unsaid words, moments of wish-you-were-here, the wondering of whys, the new hellos, the signs and symbols of what was, the thankfulness of knowing what was, the discoveries, the memory, the honor and pride runs in you, it grows, it grows you, your heart, while carrying them on

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Friday, March 1, 2019

Podcast on grief and heirlooms: Dad's voicemails

This episode features my father's voicemails. While grieving, hearing my father's voice has helped me find solace. Yes, it is hard sometimes to listen to them, but also I get to be in his day again...for a few minutes...and it's been important toward making peace with how he died to hear him alive.

When there isn't a goodbye, it helps as though his last voicemails...are his last words.

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Podcast on grief and heirlooms: Dad's rings

On this podcast episode I mention modeling and the Apple store, I share a part of the special meaning behind my father's rings.

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Podcast on grief and heirlooms: Dad's sports jacket

This episode is about my father's sports jacket. 

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My latest quotes on grief and heirlooms

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Friday, February 15, 2019

Thoughts on grief, remembrance and heirlooms

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I hope these thoughts touch your heart.


A new podcast on heirlooms is up

This is my father's pocketknife I found in his car after he died. It reminded me of being 12 years old when he gave me his old pocketknife back then, and the meaning of the memory it holds.

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Sometimes the gift doesn't sparkle or shine, sometimes it holds the hope that things will get better. 
--Pocketknife podcast narrative.

Wednesday, January 30, 2019

Where does time go while grieving

After my father passed away time changed, for a long time it felt slow--marked by what happened before and after. And this reads how I had felt in those early months and years. Sometimes I still can't believe it, and sigh into the knowing that he is gone, as another year turns.

It's easy to know how long as my son was born the following year after his death. Parenthood and grief-hood have both grown me so much, side by side.
More on grief, heirlooms and carrying on: And on my narrative podcast series on iTunes here.

Makeup, words, and Dad's sudden death

I remember I didn't put my makeup on the day my Dad died. Days went by without a clean face or glance at a tooth brush. My words left unsaid trampled over themselves in my mind, and kept me quiet asking why, why now, where there, why this way, while I went through my to-do list closing my father's life. It included deciding on an urn. My face became parched and dry.

More on grief, heirlooms and carrying on: And on my narrative podcast series on iTunes here.

Monday, January 21, 2019

Heirloom Share: Healing Through Heirlooms

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There's a story in what's left behind.


Monday, November 26, 2018

Why Does It Take So Long For The Model To Get Paid?

It shouldn't.

Typically it was normal to wait a couple months to be paid for a modeling job, however if the waiting went on over two or three months I contacted the agency and would kindly ask about an update on payment status for a certain job.

In my experience most of the time the print modeling agencies were professional when it came to payment, but that didn't mean surviving while waiting for modeling checks was easy. 

It meant I ate dollar menu meals, and fixed my scuffed up heels with a black marker sometimes before a go-see. Sometimes I would accept a hair modeling job and have my hair chopped or styled in any which way in-between paychecks in hopes one check would arrive sooner. Paying rent on time often felt impossible if it was slow.

For example, my email archives show a modeling job I did with a shoe catalog was booked for March 22 and it was paid by May 16th.

As infants, my children modeled as well, with a different print agency, and the checks took a couple months.

I consider 2-3 months normal and professional in my experience.

Recently, Federico Pignatelli, the founder of Industry Model Management, Pier 59 Studios, and co-writer of the Model’s Bill of Rights has been working with a model he represents, Simone Aptekman, and the duo drafted a comprehensive list of basic rights that models can and should expect from their agencies and clients.

The Rights proclaim that models should be paid no more than 60 days after completion of invoicing. 

I like that.

Please read Federico Pignatelli’s Model's Bill of Rights here.

As Aptekman said in a recent interview with iHeart Radio, 106.7 Lite FM WLTW-FM: “Whenever I was around other models, I would hear other girls talk about financial duress - their agencies would withhold payment for sometimes as long as 240 days – and other issues. In an effort to learn more, I hosted a symposium at my apartment with about 15 models to provide an open forum for us to air grievances and to provide support. An overwhelming theme was the financial and legal pressure that was placed on them by their agencies – specifically around timely payment for jobs, and threats about their visas which made the girls feel beholden to their agencies.”

Pignatelli echoes her sentiments: “The way that Models are treated is way too often simply disgraceful. In an industry that has grown exponentially over the past 30 years but entirely unregulated, I find myself now in the position, as the Owner of Pier59 Studios where the vast majority of Fashion Shoots occur, of demanding that the modeling industry cleans up its act. That is the goal of the Model’s Bill of Rights – to ensure the models are working in safe Studios and Location environments, are free from harassment, do not receive legal pressure from their agencies specifically surrounding their work visas, that Immigration Laws are respected in the interest of the Models and, fundamentally, that they are paid in a fair and timely manner, without unjustified overcharges. We want to educate these young Models so that they feel empowered and confident to be in charge of their career.”

Always be your best advocate. You are your business and brand, and now no matter your height there's the Model's Bill of Rights.

Dad's Rings podcast episode features my modeling pursuits

This narrative episode is about Dad's rings that I received at the funeral home after he died.

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Healing Through Heirlooms Quotes

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Monday, August 27, 2018

The Running Rebel & Mad Dog Podcast

I'm now launching a podcast series inspired by my essay in The New York Times on my father's death in a propane explosion and fire at his home.  The items I found at his car all hold memories and make me think a lot about life, his life, my life. Here will you find more on each episode of the series based on a different item from the car and other artifacts from his life.  Thanks for checking it out ~Isobella

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Thursday, October 22, 2015

Naming characters is so fun, my muses! ISO, Razz, Zell!

FashionFriday early because I can't even handle Throwback Thursday! Life is a whirlwind smile emoticon Here are my muses! ISO, Razz, Zell! One's a blonde with a sweet nature, care-free, but has a savvy take-no-shit vibe in a leather jacket and does a lot of beauty campaigns--the beauty girl, one's a brunette with bangs, and a coy expression, who means well until you mess with her, she's risen up and is now booking luxury retail campaigns like Dolce & Gabbana. One has dark short hair, a total badass, and....can be a big bitch, eyes with a story, for the camera and in life--here face is known all over the world, she's done it all, aging a bit but she is dancing on a table somewhere tonight!

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

The Model Life seies launches a Special Edition of episodes 1 & 2

This Model Life digital series Special Edition brings together episodes 1 and 2! Available soon on Amazon,, ibookstore, everywhere! Catch the graphic novel series as a duo!
Stay Tuned! Be on the look out for Model Life Takes Fashion Week and Model Life Takes Shanghai together as a set!
Model Life Takes Fashion Week and Model Life Takes Shanghai and the comp cards of the models are included in this special edition too!

P.s: Number episode #3 is in the works!!

Zell's owl in the Model Life series has a name!

Zell's Owl has a name! HIS name is Aspen! Thank you Noelle for your suggestion of Aspen! Will be in touch soon about your prize! More exciting news on the Model Life digital graphic novel series coming soon! Check out the series on Amazon and the ComicsPlus app which has lots of cool graphic novels and comics on it!

Sunday, October 4, 2015

The Compcards of the Models of the Model Life series!

(Model Life series episode 1 and 2, Model Life Takes Fashion Week and Model Life Takes Shanghai)
Zell, makes her debut in Model Life Takes Shanghai, she's a free spirit, and loves animals, but she still loves her bacon! She loves the beach and concerts too.
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Razz you meet in Model Life Takes Fashion Week, and see her more in detail in Model Life Takes Shanghai! Go Razz! Go Razz , she's a risk-taker, the fashion model you call when you need a crazy shot! Like hanging out of a helicopter!
ISO, a shorter than average model, with a coy expression but tough-shell. She's ready to rock the fashion world, don't even try to stop her. A runway fall won't damper her spirit! Her story starts in Model Life Takes Fashion Week and her mission to get revenge on Razz continues in Model Life Takes Shanghai. 
The Model Life series is on Amazon for the Kindle and on the ComicsPlus app!
Isobella Jade, writer of the Model Life series:
Jazmin Ruotolo, illustrator of the Model Life series:
Catch Jazmin at ComicCon 2015!!! See more of her work and buy prints: